2025-01-17

sophie: (conner o'malley)
2025-01-17 11:03 pm

caterpillar

i specifically remember eating grass on the playground during recess while i was at kindergarten. like quite vividly too and i cant recall that much going on atleast in class at that time

not like i was only chwing it i was swallowing the grass and i was doing it regularly, nobody did it with me and im pretty sure they didnt notice it so i dont know what compelled me to do it.maybe it change me Did something profound to who i am or like speaks something really special about me besides me being a grass-eater. it tasted like a really mediocre salad
sophie: jerma (Default)
2025-01-17 11:38 pm

(no subject)

this happens quite frequently but before i went to bed last night i felt really motivated, like i had lots of things i wanted to do and yeah. today i got so Tired from staying up late that ive spent most of my afternoon napping and i done literally none of those things. but i didnt really attempt to, llike i was tired . didnt feel llike it
and like i really start to feel shitty when i dont do things, its probably fine tto mostly rest for like one day ,but that practically has been my whole january besides a bunch of things im doing for school and some other activities.,but it sorta ssucks that i just dont connect a lot with any of that stuff despite how involved i end up being (or pretend to be) at them.
but it just kinda sucks when i go to bed with all of this motivation and thinking of ideas and subjectively better things for me to do and then i wake up and do zero of it because im tired from doin everything i have to d.o. like i havent even posted inhere for like 3 weeks because i dont want to admit that im just not having fun after having a really bad winter hooliday. does this make senses