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Jan. 17th, 2025 11:38 pmthis happens quite frequently but before i went to bed last night i felt really motivated, like i had lots of things i wanted to do and yeah. today i got so Tired from staying up late that ive spent most of my afternoon napping and i done literally none of those things. but i didnt really attempt to, llike i was tired . didnt feel llike it
and like i really start to feel shitty when i dont do things, its probably fine tto mostly rest for like one day ,but that practically has been my whole january besides a bunch of things im doing for school and some other activities.,but it sorta ssucks that i just dont connect a lot with any of that stuff despite how involved i end up being (or pretend to be) at them.
but it just kinda sucks when i go to bed with all of this motivation and thinking of ideas and subjectively better things for me to do and then i wake up and do zero of it because im tired from doin everything i have to d.o. like i havent even posted inhere for like 3 weeks because i dont want to admit that im just not having fun after having a really bad winter hooliday. does this make senses
and like i really start to feel shitty when i dont do things, its probably fine tto mostly rest for like one day ,but that practically has been my whole january besides a bunch of things im doing for school and some other activities.,but it sorta ssucks that i just dont connect a lot with any of that stuff despite how involved i end up being (or pretend to be) at them.
but it just kinda sucks when i go to bed with all of this motivation and thinking of ideas and subjectively better things for me to do and then i wake up and do zero of it because im tired from doin everything i have to d.o. like i havent even posted inhere for like 3 weeks because i dont want to admit that im just not having fun after having a really bad winter hooliday. does this make senses
caterpillar
Jan. 17th, 2025 11:03 pmi specifically remember eating grass on the playground during recess while i was at kindergarten. like quite vividly too and i cant recall that much going on atleast in class at that time
not like i was only chwing it i was swallowing the grass and i was doing it regularly, nobody did it with me and im pretty sure they didnt notice it so i dont know what compelled me to do it.maybe it change me Did something profound to who i am or like speaks something really special about me besides me being a grass-eater. it tasted like a really mediocre salad
not like i was only chwing it i was swallowing the grass and i was doing it regularly, nobody did it with me and im pretty sure they didnt notice it so i dont know what compelled me to do it.maybe it change me Did something profound to who i am or like speaks something really special about me besides me being a grass-eater. it tasted like a really mediocre salad
next ones gonna be normal and not some bulshit im swrighint at 3am. hi everoyne. dont make fun of my theme yet im not finished w it
i need to start letting people help me
Dec. 29th, 2024 02:49 ami mean its not for no reason i cant.. its because whenever im nnot doing great and i always assume thats gonna be a burden on my friends or gonna be a lot for them to deal with and whatever.. im really bad at realising how im struggling and how muchpeople actually care and genuinely want to help me through tough times. not everyones gonna be like that and some people would have their own reasons but i know (i think i do atleast) those who do. i just need to let them help me. its easy to cut people off instead but its not doing me any favors long term. and i mean i barely give people who would help the chance to do so because its notsomething im super comfortable getting.
